it's not the first time this past few weeks that i heard about a friend breaking down under the stress of the coming A's. and everytime it happened before i would tell myself: 'yeah, its not suprising that these people are stressed out beyond their wits. the A's are after all, what the past 2 years of our lives have been all about, the very reason why we are in this school doing what we're doing. and there's really no point in taking it, and sucking at it.' so yeah, i totally get why its such a big deal. im freaking stressed myself.

But today, when i heard about another friend crumbling under the pressure, i found the news quite unsettling. don't ask me why but i actually found it a bit strange that my friend was so stressed. hahahahaha. after feeling quite amused at myself, i realised that its probably because the past 2 years of my life in VJ didnt exactly feel like it was building up to this humongous battle. i was having toooooo much fun.=) school was something i actually enjoyed, and loved so dearly. and suddenly, i dont really want the A lvls to come anymore. because once its over, theres no more school.(duh!) but the more i think of it now, the more it pains me. There are just too many awesome memories of my life in VJ that i really dont want to leave behind. and im so glad i switched from studying at random places to studying in school. bcoz of that, the memories of school are still being made, and very wonderful ones at that! hahaha...

sigh. but since i cant do anything about it anyway, i'll just have to say

I LOVE YOU VJC.

you're the best thing that has happened to my life so far. i have never once doubted my choice of coming to VJ, and i never will. its just not possible after all that ive been through. it has been the most amazing 2 years of my life. and the idea of leaving the school SUCKS so badly. so so VERY badly.=(

i'll miss you, all my VJ peeps. what would my life have been if i hadnt met you guys.
(a very sad and depressing one obviously)