HOLA!!!

i havent blogged in the longest time although ive had so much time to the past few days. hahahaha. i know this is like soooo late and really anti-climatic, but the A levels are over!!=D they were officially over for me like about 3-4 days ago lah.

AND I'VE BEEN HAVING SOOOOO MUCH FUN SINCE!!!!

ive never had this much time on my hands to just burn doing nothing. like walking arnd town or wherever. but shopping for prom is rather stressful i must say. tsktsk... if only it were that easy to find a funky prom outfit to fall in love with. which also no else would have. and also would have at least substantial 'head-turning' value. yet at the same time not be too over the top. or too blah. or too last season. or whatever lah. i bought a jacket already lah. i shouldnt be wasting time stating down the criterion for the perfect prom outfit. -.- lame. oh well. i think its rather nice.=) i just have a few other components to the outfit that i have yet to buy though! ARGH. so annoying. but i believe the night out is going to be awesome.=D spent with some awesome possum friends! yippeee!

and i am no longer a club virgin! HAHA. it was an exciting and thrilling experience. hahahaha. not to mention a helluva lot of FUN!=D but a bit pricy lah. why cant there be like Men's night. tsktsk. the world is unfair. i have to pay while ladies get in for free. even if they hardly resemble the femenine gender but instead look more closely related to fishballs or any other spherical objects(globes, moons, hot-air balloons, planets, etc.), they still are let in free. over me. seriously? but okay lah. i shall quit whining. the experience was worth the cash. hahahaha.=D

but right now, i kinda need to get a job maybe. although i am kinda lazy. and i kinda wld rather spend my time chilling with my friends. i am kinda starting to get broke. and i kinda needa find a means to provide substinence for....... CHARITY! yes. that is why i want the money. to donate. to help make this world a better place. *twinkling eyes* so please, aid me in my cause. help me find a job or just feed me money. it wld be as good as doing charity work youself! without all the hassle and doubts abt how much of your money is really going to the needy. perfect.=)

in other news. i think i need to change my blog skin. its getting rather annoying with the tagboard on a different page and yada yada. sometimes i forget it exists. so i dont check and i dont respond. lol. but... maybe i wont change the skin. im too lazy to look for another one. lol.... oh well. just have to live with this one for now i suppose. hahaha

and so, as the 20th day of november 2008 passes me by, so does my only day of self-decieved freedom before the morning of the 24th. but it was a day well spent. i am very pleased.=) well i could have ended today, and finally be freed from the chains of my books, but nooooo, i chose to 'challenge' myself with a H3 subject. for which if i do not get at least a merit, would be a complete waste of time. and an embarrassment at that too. tsktsk. i had better get myself together for these last few daysssss..........

but today was seriously awesome. it was so much FUN! like practically a whole day's worth. thats something i hadnt experienced in quite some time. but i will be able to again soon. yesa. the end is near. but sadly, the end of the scrabble board study gang has already arrived. boohoohoo. the place is gonna feel so empty and sad tmr. but im sure the scrabble board gang has yet to be disbanded! we just wont be studying anymore when we next hang out. oooooo.... exciting prospects...=D hahahahaha CANT WAIT! and there are so many other people to go out with, so many things to do, so much fun to have! i am pumping and rearing to go! (about 3 whole days before i actually can. useless. -.-) hahahaha

in other news, cards are the bestest most hear-warming things you could ever recieve. a sincere card means the MOST to me. it is the best present on any occasion. seriously. they stay with you for life. and it doesnt hurt to know that there are people out there who care, who are worth knowing, and whom you know you can find a friend in.=)=)=) so with this, i'd just like to thank anyone who has ever put in their heart into a card you once wrote for me. no matter how long ago, no matter how shoddy it looks or how little time it took you to make it. i thank you. coz whenever i read thru that stash of cards and letters, my heart smiles. so does my face lah. hahaha.. i hope you feel the same when you read a card i wrote for you(whoever you are).=) i'd just like to specially thank the last person who wrote one for me - matthias ho. it was your card that inspired this chummy nonsense. hahahaha. but yeah, thank you.=)

its the little things that sometimes matter the most.

its amazing how something as juvenille as High School Musical 3 actually set me pondering about my FUTURE. and about my WHOLE life to certain extent! D= omgz lah. high school musical provoked some soul-searching. serisously. its beyond me.

but my friend was absolutely right when he told me that i should watch it coz it was relevant to me since im graduating. to think that i laughed it off at that point of time, telling myself 'no, breaking out into cheesy songs in the cafeteria is soooo NOT relevant to me.'. and now im sitting here, contemplating about my university choices. i am bemused. but for a moment during the movie, i felt a strange bond with Troy Bolton. i felt such empathy for him. it was almost as if i was there on that stage singing my heart out about NUS and medical school with basketballs raining down around me. i felt like I was the Troy Bolton of vjc. and that i could sing and dance in a musical and play basketball really well too. not only that, i could sing and dance WHILE playing basketball. being exceptional at both. wow. (its no wonder small kids get brainwashed by such movies. tsktsk.)

but yes, on a more serious note now. to be honest, my sudden desire to figure out my life is not entirely attributed to the fact that i watched HSM3. (i was in fact cringing in my seat most of the movie, when they up-ed the cheese factor just a tad bit too much) its been going on the past week or so already actually. and its really quite scary.... i dont know why i waited till now to realise that i might not actually be happy getting into NUS med. and that there are a million other brilliant universities out there in the UK and what not that can offer such wonderul experiences. why oh why. i have no idea what i want or where i want to go now. was the only reason why i wanted to get into NUS med so badly the fact that i could defer my ns? plus the fear of leaving my friends back home and like starting a new in a foreign land. but suddenly it doesnt seem so scary anymore. suddenly i have this burning desire to be part of something bigger and better than NUS. but when i think about it yet again, is it really wise to want to study overseas because it sounds more prestigious? or just because it might be cool to attend lectures by 'ang moh' doctors instead of China ones? GRAH. i really dont know anymore. i thought i had all in the bag. i thought i had my future all planned out for me already. but the closer i get to the next part of my life the more confused i am. i cant say that i want to get into nus med with such confidence anymore. i dont know if im making the right decisions for the right reasons. its such a lousy feeling. sigh.

on the other hand, i might not have the liberty to choose in the future anyways. so i dont know. i guess i'll just wait and see. and keep my options open at the moment? hmmmm..

hello hello hello.

just like that, the first week of the As have whizzed past. actually it didnt really feel like it 'whizzed' for me. it actually felt like quite a drag. but oh wadeva, its OVER. cant say i feel very confident in my performance, but what to do. tsktsk. and with the weeks closure, i feel as though the entire A leves has already ended. ive been lazying around the whole of yesterday after math and today, err, only started work late in the afternoon. and i mean LATE. and now, im sitting in front of the tv yet again, watching tennis! oh well. its sunday tmr. wont do any harm to sleep abit later tonight. hahahaha.

watching tennis is such a joy. and tennis commentators can be sooooooo hilarious sometimes. with their dry humour. lol. i cant wait to get my hands on a raquet and give it go! seems like a lot of funnnnnn. ahhhh.. so many things to do after As but so little time! urgh. oh wells. i have to through it first though.

so its back to the scrabble board tommorow! that place is like my second home.(warm smile) awwww...

i am sad.

not because i think im going to suck at the As, but sad because nadal had to retire from his match.

devastating news. =((((((((

GRAH. you had better be the year end champion! GOGOGO!