WHOOPEE!
avenue Q is not bad i must say. not bad at all. although it was not AS funny as i expected it to be. like i wasnt laughing my head off every single minute of it(as i was hoping to), but funny enough i suppose. some jokes were very clever indeed. i would really like to share them, but i shall not spoil the fun for anyone's who's going to watch and happens to be reading my blog. the probability of which should be quite close to zero actually... considering the number of people who believe that i actually update blogs. hmmmm.

back to ave. Q, the singing was AWESOME. although the guy's fillipino accent kept creeping in here and there. oh wait, most of the time actually. hahahaha. but thats not such big a deal. if you say big a deal fast enough, it sounds like begedal(if thats how you spell it - the potato thingy) bigadeal. bigadeal. begedal.

okay not funnyyyyyyy.

the night out just made me want the A lvls to end sooner. how contradictory to my previous post t'isnt it? but ah... thats just the way life is. =] hahahaha. oh well. its time to get back to the books after today's wasted day spent visiting both my doctor and my dentist(both of whom are very amusing men). not to mention OVERSLEEPING. -.- tsktsk.

LETS GO VJ LETS GO! *piakpiakpiak*

in other news: *RAFA~RAFA~RAFA~* win the bloody paribas masters pleaseeeeee.

it's not the first time this past few weeks that i heard about a friend breaking down under the stress of the coming A's. and everytime it happened before i would tell myself: 'yeah, its not suprising that these people are stressed out beyond their wits. the A's are after all, what the past 2 years of our lives have been all about, the very reason why we are in this school doing what we're doing. and there's really no point in taking it, and sucking at it.' so yeah, i totally get why its such a big deal. im freaking stressed myself.

But today, when i heard about another friend crumbling under the pressure, i found the news quite unsettling. don't ask me why but i actually found it a bit strange that my friend was so stressed. hahahahaha. after feeling quite amused at myself, i realised that its probably because the past 2 years of my life in VJ didnt exactly feel like it was building up to this humongous battle. i was having toooooo much fun.=) school was something i actually enjoyed, and loved so dearly. and suddenly, i dont really want the A lvls to come anymore. because once its over, theres no more school.(duh!) but the more i think of it now, the more it pains me. There are just too many awesome memories of my life in VJ that i really dont want to leave behind. and im so glad i switched from studying at random places to studying in school. bcoz of that, the memories of school are still being made, and very wonderful ones at that! hahaha...

sigh. but since i cant do anything about it anyway, i'll just have to say

I LOVE YOU VJC.

you're the best thing that has happened to my life so far. i have never once doubted my choice of coming to VJ, and i never will. its just not possible after all that ive been through. it has been the most amazing 2 years of my life. and the idea of leaving the school SUCKS so badly. so so VERY badly.=(

i'll miss you, all my VJ peeps. what would my life have been if i hadnt met you guys.
(a very sad and depressing one obviously)

i guess if it was that easy to find love, it wouldn't feel as great as it does.

okayyy..... why am i musing over issues like this at a time like this. i should instead be musing over what reagents are required for like, err... i cant think of the most annoying reaction now. okay whatever. hahahha. ahh. a week left. and do i feel sooo unprepared! tsktsk. whywhywhy cant it be like the O's. although i was freaking scared at that point of time too, at least i could see that i was progressing steadily everyday! right now... its all just a blurr. oh well.

one week to work a miracle!

hmmmm.... what do you do when a little bit of self-relection reveals to you that you're not exactly as good a person as you thought you were. its a shitty feeling. and the thing is, i really dont know how to change. in fact, i dont think its possible for me to accomplish that on my own accord. i need to experience something. something major, something scary, something hurtful, something that would just change the way i view things. change the way i've been feeling all my life.

i pray it happens soon, coz i really dont want to live like this anymore.

hmmm.... yet another hope dashed. oh well. cant say im very suprised it happened though. i knew it cldnt be perfect from the start the way things were. but i guess i just hoped that by some crazy miracle, i would have ended up at a destination so far off from the path ive been led down. TSKTSK.

on another note, I am totally not an existentialist. the world is a beautful place and life is wonderful.

=D

maybe its just because im an idealist. if so, thank god for that!
coz i would soooo rather be enjoying my life than like despair about the meaningless of life.

This is insane. Please please please. I do hope something good comes out of this. lol.

Hello world!

Yes its me attempting to blog yet again. What am I doing starting a blog at a time like this when it feels like the As are going to start tmr morning? I really don't know. hahahaha... just had the sudden urge to blog.=D

Maybe part of the reason why I wanted a new blog was because my violin teacher asked me one day if I had a blog because she wanted to see photos of my trip to D.C. and stuff. First thing that came to mind was my LJ's name. hmmmm. Not exactly the smartest of decisions I must say. hahahaha. But it's not as if I actually post photos(or post at all as a matter of fact) on my LJ. So I really have no clue why I bothered to do this. lol. Hopefully I'll have more success this time round.

And I know the skin looks really Secondary School and like so over-used. Not to mention it's quite difficult to navigate and what not. tsktsk. But I'm just SOOOO in LOVE with the picture. The colours are brilliant! It makes me feel so calm.=) Something I should'nt feel right now actually. I ought to be feeling ALARMED and STRESSED over how unprepared I am for the As. Urgh.

Well that concludes this post then. I ought to be in bed now. tsktsk.