Sometimes people do stupid ignorant things with complete disregard of the possible consequences and how they may affect the people around them. But acknowledging that it's human to make such mistakes does not change the fact that once the damage is done, some things just never return to the way they were.

This is one mistake that I will beat myself up for for a very very long time.

Good Job Taariq Chew, you just killed your own happiness you selfish piece of animal crap.

Sometimes I don't know what I'm feeling. And it scares me.
But mostly it annoys me more than anything.

I don't like the unknown.
But I do like surprises.
lol.


Can't wait to start working! At least then I'd have something to keep me occupied. AND most importantly I'd be earning some cash. Haha. I hope work won't be boring. And I hope the people are nice(and hot)(and are interested in me. That would be fun=D).

Pleasepleasepleaseplease.

Thank god for leftovers.

Just had a sudden urge to EATEATEAT. Don't know why. Happens once in a while. But when it happens i just want to eat anything and everything i can find. I desperately wanted to drive out for supper but I couldn't find company so i went down to the kitchen and THANKFULLY, there was some spaghetti left.=) YUM. I feel so satisfied now. Although my day still does feel kinda rather incomplete. I have been having the laziest 2 days of my life EVER. All I've done since yesterday afternoon(I say afternoon coz i only got home in the afternoon on Sunday) was sit around at home and watch Glee, Grey's Anatomy and ANTM. I did go for an interview this afternoon which really lasted only 15 mins. -.- Travelled all the way to Raffles place and after 15 mins, travelled all the way back to Tampines. How fun. Why didn't I go to town or smth after my interview you ask? COZ I HAD NO ONE TO GO WITH.=( Or at least i didn't ask and no one asked me. Lol. Sadness.

Ah well. At least I managed to catch up with the few shows that I actually follow... I know there are a million other shows that I could use this free time to watch like... Big Bang Theory and HIMYM and Chuck and Desperate Housewives and I dunno what else, but I've had enough time at home to myself. If i have another day like this in the near future, I would kill myself. Okay no I won't. I'd just cry in a corner at home probably. o.o

While I was eating my spaghetti and thinking about how it is now that I need to get out of the house and do smth before I feel like my day was well spent, I was reminded of my younger days in Primary school when I didn't meet friends outside of school. And all I did was play computer games and watch TV at home and went to sleep early. And I was satisfied with life? Gosh I was such a loser. Hahahaha. I also got reminded of the time I was at Jovi's house with the rest preparing for Halloween and looking across the street I noticed a bunch of children playing at their porch. This girl and boy were on their scooters riding around in circles in that limited space, which means the circles were really small, with their younger cousins or whoever running after them screaming in joy. They did this for a good 10-15mins. Round and round. In circles. Not even at a very high speed. In circles. And they were happy.(And they looked stupid too) And I just thought 'wth? I wish riding around in circles was enough to make me happy.'

Sigh. Sometimes I wish I was a simpleton.



Okay maybe not. It sounds scary.

HOLLER!

I got my freaking Driver's License this morning! (okay, more like a piece of not so cheap paper that is pretending to be a driver's license, but whatever, same difference)

YEEHAW.


Wow, come to think of it, I actually spent about close to an entire year in total to get my license. Not because I had to re-take a gazillion times, but because of the drama with my first instructor. Which ended with me busting the windows of his car.(But it don't compare to my broken heart~ and my empty wallet. -.-) Grr... such a waste of time and money. Well at least I passed on the first try with my new instructor!=) If not I would have probably run in front of another testee's car in an attempt to kill myself. And cause him/her to get an immediate failure for killing a pedestrian. tsktsk. Aren't we glad that didn't happen?=)

In other news, I just had a medical check-up at Raffles Hospital as part of my Visa application. And it cost me $222.55. Like wth? Gosh. It wasn't even that extensive. -.- If I ever come back to Singapore to work. That's the kind of place I'd like to be, seriously. I am so damn broke now. Thankfully this paying for expensive shit stops today. Driving done. Dental done. Visa done. Phew. BUT NO JOB!!!!!!!! ARGH. I am so screwed. Anyone, GIVE ME MONEY! I'd do anything for you! ANYTHING. Just please don't let me starve in Australia....=(

Somebody saveeeeeee meeeeee~~~~~ please?

Excerpt from my Monash Medicine interview back in I don't remember when exactly actually:


Interviewer 1: So when does your National Service end?

Awesome possum Me: November. (smiles sweetly)

Interviewer 2: (exasperated tone, to Interviewer 1) Everybody's ending in November! There's going to be huge party here in November!

Brilliant Me: (Giggles along with Interviewer 1 and gives demure smile)


In my head I was going 'HO HO HO... You have no idea.....=P'

And boy was he right! Crazy crazy ORD party last night.

BIG THANKS TO CAI YIMING!
(although honestly, no ones really gonna see this. coz my blog is such a loser. Sorry about that Yiming.) For helping to plan and organise our awesome BMT gathering.=) It felt like BMT all over again when I saw my fellow Scorpion section mates. Awww....=) Such a funny feeling. The same way ORD-ing is such a funny feeling. Like what.......... what the hell just happened? I ORD-ed? Huh? Really? Ouh okay.  Thank you very much. See you bye. And then you don't know what to do. lol. Strange strange feeling it is to ORD. You look forward to it since the day you enlist, or even before that. But when it finally arrives, the feeling is so anti-climatic. -.- But whatever, I'm not complaining! Don't have to deal with all that shit anymore. Yay.=) My NS life was kinda filled with alot of bad decisions though. lol. I think I could have enjoyed it alot more, but sadly I didnt take advantage of all the luck I had. What with my posting to medic course and then to PTMC and all, I really was very lucky. But..... oh well. Maybe it's not me. Maybe you just can't have it all. You win some and you lose some.=)

The Heart wants what the Heart wants.

But dearest Heart, have you not already heard? You can't always get what you want. So seriously, it's about time you SHUT UP and grew up already.

DAMN.

REALLY. Like get a life or something. You know it's not gonna happen, and you know nothing good's gonna come out of this obsession, so please, just stop whining and putting all kinds of strange ideas in my head. Pretty please? Because it's tiring and it's a waste of my freaking time and energy to think about things that cannot and will not be. I'm better off doing something more productive like, i dunno, run naked down Orchad road or smth. -.- Seriously.

GET OUTTA MY HEAD, HEART.

Thank you very much for your time.

HOLA!


Gosh I am finally blogging again. 


After contemplating doing so for a very long time, I have decided that today shall be the day. If you realise, my last post was in March 2009! That's about a year and 9 months ago. cool.......=) my blog is so pathetic I could actually read every single one of my posts in a single night. lolz.... But my, how things have changed since the last time I've been here! The last post being about my medicine application to NUS. HAHA. How old school is that! -.- I'm thinking the only people who'd read this are people who actually know me(right?), so yeah, you should probably already know that I was rejected a place in NUS(eons ago), and have landed myself a place in UNSW instead! (chose that over Monash=/). AND if all goes well....(please please please, let me have my Visa) I'll be off in February! Whoopee!=D


But I shall not waste time catching up with my blog. Its crazy if I were to try and document all the big events that have happened in my life since then. fooyo. Shall not bother.


The REAL reason behind this sudden urge to blog is that... 


I GOT MY BRACES OFF TODAY!!! 
HAHAHAHAHHAA. GOSH. OMG. 


No more hours spent agonizing over a piece of chicken stuck in the back of my teeth


No more freak ulcers appearing coz the wires decided to be bitchy


And no more having to worry about cutting someone else's tongue when it's in my mouth! YEEHAW!
(Actually I never really believed that could happen, but everyone else seems to think it's possible. But whatever, doesnt matter now!)


I was actually on the verge of hyperventilating in front of the toilet mirror a while ago as I was admiring my new set of pearly not-so-whites.=D It's crazy! They look so foreign! But beautiful nonetheless.=)


Trust me, I had a awesome time with my braces. It was fun and it was cute and I was already used to all the shit it was giving me. And it kinda became part of my identity. But damn it was about time it went back to where it came from already!


So farewell my metal companion! (although I do have it in a small zip lock bag on my desk now as a souvenir. COOL RIGHT. HAHA.) 


All I need now is some teeth whitener.=D